My Pursuit of Happyness

"Don't ever let somebody tell you, you can't do something.

Not even me. Alright?

You got a dream, you gotta protect it.

People can't do something themselves, they wanna tell you, you can't do it. You want something? Go get it. Period."

- Will Smith as Chris Gardner in The Pursuit Of Happyness.

The past week and a half has actually been the craziest for me and as strange as it sounds I kind of have this film to thank along with watching Yes Man (starring Jim Carrey).

If there's anyone that hasn't seen either of these films then I highly recommend you watch them because they're both really motivational and inspiring...and what's really strange, have kind of changed my way of thinking -the power of cinema huh!

So I watched Yes Man which you probably get the general idea, is about a guy who, whilst being completely miserable and unenthralled with life, is introduced to this new lifestyle program which involves saying 'Yes'...to everything!

...Ok so I'm not that stupid, I didn't say 'Yes' to everything haha but it does make you broaden your mind a little bit if you don't say no and don't dismiss things so easily, and this is when opportunities arise!

It might be coincidence but in the past week or so I have been approached by a fashion photographer for a shoot!

On Tuesday I acted in a short film for Channel 4- wasn't a massive part or anything but was so much fun and everyone on set was really nice! Whilst I was there it brought it home to me that people actually do this as their day job -they get paid to act everyday...to do what I love...I hope they appreciate it and more than anything I hope I can one day be one of those people!

I also have a few make-up jobs in the pipeline AND I MAY HAVE FOUND A POSSIBLE INVESTOR FOR MY NEW YORK STUDIES!!!

I'm not getting my hopes up...but fingers crossed!

I would just like to point out that it wasn't as easy as it sounds, I have had to put a lot of work into trying to get these opportunities. But I'm a firm believer of if you want something bad enough then you just have to go out and get it, because it's not going to come to you on its own...

My dream is to go to The New York Conservatory for Dramatic Arts, to study there for two years, to somehow get the money to study on the course and after a LOT of hard work, one day be the successful actress I've always wanted to be.

This is my dream and I'm going to do everything I can to go get it!

On a final note I am still looking for bands/performers for the event that I will be holding (probably sometime in May in London) if anyone would like to come or knows anyone who wouldn't mind performing then please get in touch!

As always I would like to thank everyone for their support and messages :)

Much Love

Emily

Finding A Sponsor...Impossible? Improbable? Or Inevitable?

"So many of our dreams at first seem impossible, then they seem improbable, and then, they soon become inevitable".

-Christopher Reeve

- If Superman says something then it must be right! :)

I would firstly like to give a mention to my friend Tigz who is the creator of the above image which I've used, taken from her book 'The Doll Who Wanted To Live' (in which I modelled-Thanks Tigz!)

Tigz is a freelance illustrator and all round artistic genius who was recently featured in the winter edition of 'Illustration Magazine' which is sold in the Tate Modern/Britain!

She's doing really well for herself and is a pleasure to model for!

I hope 2010 brings great things for her- you can check out her blog http://www.tigzart.blogspot.com/ and website http://www.tigzrice.com/ go check out her shop- you may even find prints of me in there somewhere! :)

'The Doll Who Wanted To Live' is a picture book about a doll who being uncontent with living her life trapped inside a box with strings holding her in place, cuts through the strings herself and escapes....

Sometimes I think people- including myself sometimes- are too quick to think that something is beyond reach or impossible. Everything's possible, and when I think about it- no one has ever told me something isn't possible other than myself. We all give ourselves limitations or make excuses for no reason! This year I have made it my challenge to make anything that at first seems impossible: improbable and then eventually inevitable! Good set of rules to live by I think....Thanks Superman!

Since I got accepted by NYCDA and started this blog, I've had lots of people message me in regards to acting courses or change in their careers.

I'm extremely flattered that people are coming to me with their questions but by no means am I an expert! All I can say is- I think we should all be like the doll who wanted to live- cut through those metaphorical strings and break free from the box...could be scary at first...could also be pretty fun!

One question that lots of people ask is do you think I'm too old to start acting classes-I don't think you're ever too old to do anything, if you aim high and work hard then you'll never be disappointed and one day the impossible will become the inevitable :)

One thing at the moment that I think is taking a long time in becoming inevitable is the fundraising for my course. I am still looking for sponsors and would very much appreciate any help that anyone can offer me with this.

To get me over to New York for my first year including accomodation/fees/books etc. I need approx. £30,000....

Eeek! A lot of money I know!

Now to make it clear I'm not asking for someone to write me a cheque for this amount (although if you would like to, please make cheques payable to Miss EEA Marshall...haha!)

Maybe you know someone, who would be interested in sponsoring me, or you know of any organisations that give grants for this kind of thing- I've researched this a lot but who knows there may be one that I haven't contacted already.

Any help with this would mean a lot as I am rapidly running out of time- I have roughly seven months before I am due to start and really don't want to give up on such an amazing opportunity just because of money!

In terms of finding other ways to raise money for my course, a few people have been in touch with ideas- which has been very much appreciated, thank you!

So far it looks like the most popular thing suggested is if I hold some kind of event/party, everyone pays a set entry fee, get some live bands/DJ's and we all have a fun evening...I benefit...you benefit...its a win-win situation!!

But I definatly need a show of hands so I can get an idea of numbers-to organise venue etc.

So Question 1: Who's up for the event being in London?

Question 2: Bands/live acts- does anyone want to perform/play at my event? Or do you know of anyone who would want to use this as a place to showcase their talent/get performance experience?

(I'm sure we could organise your set to be filmed so you could use it on your/your bands website- let me know if interested!)

I would greatly appreciate everyone's help with this one!

As always thanks for reading,

Much Love,

Emily

New Year, New Challenges, Same Dream.....

"Within each of us is a hidden store of energy. Energy we can release to compete in the marathon of life.
Within each of us is a hidden store of courage.
Courage to give us the strength to face any challenge.
Within each of us is a hidden store of determination to keep us in the race when all seems lost".

-Roger Dawson

Happy New Year!

I hope everyone enjoyed the festive period!

So it's the beginning of a new year AND a new decade.

It doesn't feel like it was all that long ago that the year 2000 was upon us and we all thought we were going to be got at by the Millenium bug....but so far, so good...!

For some reason the beginning of this year has got me thinking more than most.

I'm not normally one for new year's resolutions.

Lets be honest they normally last for about the first couple of weeks or so, and we often try to make so many that we only make ourselves feel bad when we break them!

So this year, for me, it's all about challenges rather than resolutions.

Number One: Stretch myself further than I think I can go and try to achieve my goals, no matter how big or small.

Number Two: Believe in myself more- which I find increasingly hard to do.

Number Three: Never doubt, and NEVER let the inner pessimist out.

Number Four: UPDATE THE BLOG MORE OFTEN!!!! haha!

As it's the start of a new year (a time for honesty etc. etc.) I thought I'd let you into a little secret:

I almost didn't go to the New York audition last year.

I got the invite two weeks before the audition date.

Naturally I was really excited and scared.

I prepared my audition pieces.

Turned up on the day and.....couldn't go in.

Now I don't normally get nervous, and if I do then I'm pretty good at hiding it but this audition wasn't just an audition, it was more than that.

I'd been going to auditions for a good while- since I left college at 18, so almost 5 years.

I'd had a few good and fairly well paid acting/television/modelling jobs but they were few and far between.

I've also been to more rubbish castings than anyone I know!

I've been asked to do the most ridiculous things before (my friends love listening to my cringe-worthy-audition-horror-stories one involving Jeremy Edwards (Holby City/Rachel Stevens' ex)....seriously cringe-worthy!)

I was starting to think that my 'acting career' was all but a joke and for the first (and only) time I considered packing it all in and starting a serious career in fashion.

So when I got called to audition for the NYCDA, I jumped at the chance but also saw it as my make or break.

I thought I'd just go along and try to get some feedback on where I was going wrong or how to improve my technique from the people who know the acting industry better than anyone.

It was the hidden energy, courage and determination that came out that day, that got me through those doors, into the audition room and eventually gained me a place at one of the best Acting school's in the world. :)

But the challenge has really only just begun:

At the end of March I will have to go through the whole process again to try and get a place on the same course for this year as I was unable to raise enough funds to go in August 2009.

I really hope that inner energy, courage and determination come out again!

I'm finding it increasingly difficult trying to get any kind of financial help from any of the organisations/individuals that I have written to so far.

It has felt like the hardest part of the process has been trying to get the money when really it should've been getting into the school!

So any assistance with this would be greatly appreciated- if anyone knows of any organisations or people that may be willing to help me then please get in touch!

As always I would like to thank everyone for their support and I'm actually astounded at the amount of positive messages and feedback that I receive in regards to my blog- I apologise if I sometimes take a while to get back to everyone, I actually have more time on my hands at the moment so no excuses now!

On a final note:

Each year, each month and each day bring with it new challenges.

Some of us feel more challenged than most at times.

Always believe, always hope and never lose determination.

I wish everyone a very happy, healthy and fulfilled 2010!

P.S. Apparently this week in the UK we've had the most snow/worst winter weather for like 30 years! I've been lucky because I already had time off work booked, but I know lots of people haven't been able to make it in to work so everyone's been enjoying their snow days!! :)

Here's what I've been doing with mine (besides updating my blog!)

Thanks for reading! :)

Much Love,

Emily