Wednesday 9 June 2010
..."Start spreading the news..!"
Thursday 11 February 2010
World Peace?
So I think I may have succumbed to 'woman-flu', feeling pretty run down and sorry for myself but thought I'd take the time to update the blog and do something constructive between sniffles.....
So firstly some news!
Not sure at this precise moment if I feel it is good or bad...(opinions would be appreciated on this one please) but I had an e-mail last week from the organisers of Miss Great Britain asking if I would like to enter!
In 2006 I got into the finals for Miss London. I was 18 and saw it as a fun opportunity- I didn't get very far and found the whole experience a bit too 'Miss Congeniality' for me!
And yes, before you ask, some girls did use the immortal line
'And I would like...World Peace!'
when asked why they wanted to be Miss London......haha maybe that's where I went wrong.....!
Hmm...so why am I now on the Miss Great Britain website in a line up consisting of mainly wannabe glamour girls whose main aspirations in life are of becoming a footballers wife?
I just want to be quick to point out that, that's not what I think by the way, but I know that it's what most people's perception's are of these girls. And now probably of me too :(
The honest answer to this is: money! The thought of wearing a pretty dress kind of appeals too.....and...errr...world peace??!!
(Oh and also the fact that I was still going along with the Yes Man mentality when I got asked if I wanted to do it!)
I didn't realise how much money was involved in these competitions! If I were to win it, it would help me significantly in my goal of getting to New York. Plus a lot of modelling and acting agency's both here in the UK and in the US use the website as a way of finding new talent :)
For me to be able to win though, I will be counting on people's votes!
At the moment I'm not sure how this will work, more than likely it will be based on audience votes- so if people would like to come watch then I would greatly appreciate the support and it should be a fun event! You may be able to vote online although I know that there is no facility for this yet but if you would like to check out the site it is:
http://www.missgreatbritain.co.uk/
Check out my super cheesy headshot under entrants! :)
Oh and just to make it clear for people who aren't sure: I've got no interest in glamour modelling or of marrying a footballer or of becoming famous for the sake of being famous...!
Lots of people say to me, 'ah so you want to be famous? cool!'
Um actually, no. I don't want to be famous. I can't think of anything worse than having every inch of my life under constant scrutiny and I can't stand the whole celebrity culture thing! Which is why I'm slightly reluctant to compete in a competition based around shameless self promotion and the need to be 'famous'...I'm hoping that by entering I may change people's perception's of this?
I have one goal that keeps me going, and that goal is my dream.
I just want to be able to raise enough cash to get to New York- £30,000 for the first year- train at one of the best acting schools, hopefully go on to become a successful actress and eventually one day be recognised for it :)
Obviously it's going to be a lot harder than that and sometimes it feels like it's never going to happen.
But where there's a will, there's a way- right? :)
In my last post you may remember I mentioned that I had a possible investor interested in my American dream?
Well he's come back to me asking if I could set up a website purely dedicated to my plight. This is because he knows people who invest in the arts and he needs something to show them (apparently the blog just won't do)....thing is I don't have the money to get a real website made and haven't got a clue about web design! If anyone could help me with this I would be incredibly happy.... trying to raise £30,000 has never seemed so difficult!
But I still have a dream and I still have hope which gives me my motivation!
I currently have 44 days until my re-audition: so nerves, stress, excitement and panic (I need to find audition pieces!) are all starting to set in....
I would like to thank everyone as always for their messages of encouragement and support, it's these that definatly keep me going and keep me motivated! I'm still constantly sending e-mails and writing letters to people to try to get funding- often with no response, it would be so easy to give up but it's my friends and family who keep me going- massive thank you to you all!
World Peace? (If only it was that easy!)
As always thanks for reading.
Emily
Sunday 31 January 2010
My Pursuit of Happyness
The past week and a half has actually been the craziest for me and as strange as it sounds I kind of have this film to thank along with watching Yes Man (starring Jim Carrey).
It might be coincidence but in the past week or so I have been approached by a fashion photographer for a shoot!
On Tuesday I acted in a short film for Channel 4- wasn't a massive part or anything but was so much fun and everyone on set was really nice! Whilst I was there it brought it home to me that people actually do this as their day job -they get paid to act everyday...to do what I love...I hope they appreciate it and more than anything I hope I can one day be one of those people!
I'm not getting my hopes up...but fingers crossed!
I would just like to point out that it wasn't as easy as it sounds, I have had to put a lot of work into trying to get these opportunities. But I'm a firm believer of if you want something bad enough then you just have to go out and get it, because it's not going to come to you on its own...
My dream is to go to The New York Conservatory for Dramatic Arts, to study there for two years, to somehow get the money to study on the course and after a LOT of hard work, one day be the successful actress I've always wanted to be.
This is my dream and I'm going to do everything I can to go get it!
On a final note I am still looking for bands/performers for the event that I will be holding (probably sometime in May in London) if anyone would like to come or knows anyone who wouldn't mind performing then please get in touch!
As always I would like to thank everyone for their support and messages :)
Much Love
Emily
Monday 18 January 2010
Finding A Sponsor...Impossible? Improbable? Or Inevitable?
Sometimes I think people- including myself sometimes- are too quick to think that something is beyond reach or impossible. Everything's possible, and when I think about it- no one has ever told me something isn't possible other than myself. We all give ourselves limitations or make excuses for no reason! This year I have made it my challenge to make anything that at first seems impossible: improbable and then eventually inevitable! Good set of rules to live by I think....Thanks Superman!
Since I got accepted by NYCDA and started this blog, I've had lots of people message me in regards to acting courses or change in their careers.
I'm extremely flattered that people are coming to me with their questions but by no means am I an expert! All I can say is- I think we should all be like the doll who wanted to live- cut through those metaphorical strings and break free from the box...could be scary at first...could also be pretty fun!
One question that lots of people ask is do you think I'm too old to start acting classes-I don't think you're ever too old to do anything, if you aim high and work hard then you'll never be disappointed and one day the impossible will become the inevitable :)
One thing at the moment that I think is taking a long time in becoming inevitable is the fundraising for my course. I am still looking for sponsors and would very much appreciate any help that anyone can offer me with this.
To get me over to New York for my first year including accomodation/fees/books etc. I need approx. £30,000....
Eeek! A lot of money I know!
Now to make it clear I'm not asking for someone to write me a cheque for this amount (although if you would like to, please make cheques payable to Miss EEA Marshall...haha!)
Maybe you know someone, who would be interested in sponsoring me, or you know of any organisations that give grants for this kind of thing- I've researched this a lot but who knows there may be one that I haven't contacted already.
Any help with this would mean a lot as I am rapidly running out of time- I have roughly seven months before I am due to start and really don't want to give up on such an amazing opportunity just because of money!
In terms of finding other ways to raise money for my course, a few people have been in touch with ideas- which has been very much appreciated, thank you!
So far it looks like the most popular thing suggested is if I hold some kind of event/party, everyone pays a set entry fee, get some live bands/DJ's and we all have a fun evening...I benefit...you benefit...its a win-win situation!!
Thursday 7 January 2010
New Year, New Challenges, Same Dream.....
Within each of us is a hidden store of courage.
Courage to give us the strength to face any challenge.
Within each of us is a hidden store of determination to keep us in the race when all seems lost".
-Roger Dawson
So it's the beginning of a new year AND a new decade.
So this year, for me, it's all about challenges rather than resolutions.
Number Two: Believe in myself more- which I find increasingly hard to do.
As it's the start of a new year (a time for honesty etc. etc.) I thought I'd let you into a little secret:
So when I got called to audition for the NYCDA, I jumped at the chance but also saw it as my make or break.
It was the hidden energy, courage and determination that came out that day, that got me through those doors, into the audition room and eventually gained me a place at one of the best Acting school's in the world. :)
But the challenge has really only just begun:
I'm finding it increasingly difficult trying to get any kind of financial help from any of the organisations/individuals that I have written to so far.
So any assistance with this would be greatly appreciated- if anyone knows of any organisations or people that may be willing to help me then please get in touch!
As always I would like to thank everyone for their support and I'm actually astounded at the amount of positive messages and feedback that I receive in regards to my blog- I apologise if I sometimes take a while to get back to everyone, I actually have more time on my hands at the moment so no excuses now!
On a final note:
Here's what I've been doing with mine (besides updating my blog!)
Thanks for reading! :)
Much Love,
Emily
Sunday 6 December 2009
'Somewhere In Between'
I’ve sneakily taken these first few paragraphs from the NYCDA’S blog so my first thanks goes to them!
I found this really interesting when I read it and anyone else who is of creative mind might feel it relates to them too- I know I certainly felt that it was written for me and gives me reassurance that there are other people who think the same way as I do…a bit cliché maybe, but its motivational nonetheless...so in my entry this week I am going to go slightly transparent, just for a while, wear my heart on my sleeve and give an insight into how I really feel…well….maybe...just a little bit...!!
The past couple of weeks have been fairly busy for myself as usual but it’s also been a period of reflection for me too- particularly this week, so forgive me if I ramble as I suppose I’m using this latest entry as a ‘note to self’ but maybe others might find it interesting too :)
In relation to Eileen Connolly’s entry- unfortunately I did not ‘avoid this painful discovery’ instead I tried to fit in with my surroundings and the people around me because I was ‘different’ and was made aware of it on a regular basis. Now, as I’ve got older I’ve learnt that being different is what makes me who I am and I’m thankful that I’m not like anyone else and that I still haven’t given up on my dream and my ambition for the sake of what other people think.
I must admit though that I do find it frustrating when I talk to people who have never known what they’ve wanted to do with their lives and who have no dream. I find it quite disheartening that I can’t understand how it is for them and realise how they must feel when I talk about the things that I want to do, knowing that they can’t understand how it feels to want something as bad as I want to follow my ambition of becoming a successful movie star :)
Take for example a conversation that I had with someone this week, it went as follows:
“So the acting things really cool, I like how even though you’re working such long hours to save up and stuff that you’re still trying to get castings and meetings with agents.
(This was followed by a VERY unimpressed look from myself)
….I mean, I know you like, still wanna go and stuff- and I’m sure you will, but like, shouldn’t you be trying to get a career now? ‘Cause you’re 22- should be climbing a career ladder or something now, right??!”
The funny thing was that this person said this very innocently and I don’t believe they meant anything by it but they managed to disregard my profession and all I’ve ever wanted to do in one sentence! I do actually love it when people say things like this though, because it only makes me want to prove them wrong even more!
I remember back when I was at college, our drama tutor at the time told us that 90% of actors are out of work….my answer to this was- so who’s to say that I won’t be in that 10%??
I know that a lot of my actor friends are getting disheartened with the lack of auditions and jobs around at the moment.
To these friends- keep the faith, the motivation, and we will one day be in that 10%!
So this week was pretty eventful, I had a casting for a commercial (although I can’t say which brand it was for!) But I will say that the proposed buy out fee that they are offering the chosen actress would help significantly towards my New York fund!
I’m still working my long 7-6 shifts at New Look which is tough but it’s all good money and I do actually like my job so it could be worse!
And finally…..
In Eileen’s entry she writes:
“Finding people who think the way you think. Finding people who inspire you to think beyond the way you think now.”
It is only now, as I am writing, that I realise that in just the last 2 weeks I have seen/spent time with all the people who I count as close friends- some who I see regularly and some who I don’t see as much as I’d like, but who have all believed and never doubted me- the people who inspire me to think beyond the way I think now :)
This blog is a dedication to all of these friends and to the people who continually offer me their support, interest and encouragement, so a massive thanks to you all!
Much Love,
Emily
Thursday 12 November 2009
The dream lives on....
...And swim out to it I shall!
Hello!
So I am officially the worst at updating the old blog but I have good reason for this.......now do you want the good news? Or the bad first?
Lets go for the bad....
But first a brief update for those of you who have only just started following!
Lots of you have been following my blog :)
I've been overwhelmed with the amount of interest, kind words, support and donations I have received for my big apple adventure (Thank you!)
So, The New York Conservatory for Dramatic Arts amazingly offered me a place on their two year course in acting for television and film. Unfortunately I couldn't afford to go in August (I need roughly £60000 for two years!) but they very kindly offered me a place on the same course next year...however next year means January 2010....
Sadly, I wasn't one of the British winners of the £45000'000 prize money from the Euromillions jackpot the other night...think I need to pick different numbers next time..... ;) .....anyways, I won't be going in January either :(
Good news?? Ok, now for the good stuff :)
The good news is that the NYCDA have been amazingly supportive throughout (makes me want to go there even more!!)
I have been invited to re-audition in March 2010, I'm hoping that I may be able to audition for their scholorship too which would help with the money side of things.
If anyone has any advice/good audition pieces they think I could use then please get in touch!
By no means is this the end of my dream to study in New York, the people who know me best will know that I'm the most ambitious and determined lady they know ;)
I believe that persistence pays, if you want something bad enough whether it be in work, love or just life in general it will happen- just never give up on your dreams and aspirations.
Someone once told me that the only person from stopping you from doing anything is yourself... never give yourself limitations- you've got to aim high!
My dream to become a successful actress will be fufilled one day (just not as soon as I originally planned!) Once again a massive thank you to everyone who has been supporting me, I am continuing with the fundraising for next year (as advised by the school- I feel extremely privileged to have their support and just knowing that such an establishment believes in my abilities and potential as an actress is amazing in itself).
I would also like to take this opportunity to mention that very sadly, I found out yesterday that my old GCSE drama teacher from Imberhorne- Mrs Gasson- has passed away after suffering from lung cancer.
She was one of a few people that stand out to me as always being supportive of my abilities, giving me encouragement and constructive criticism in all my performances at school.
I think she played a fundemental role in me deciding on what I wanted to do as a career- despite objections from other teachers/people who thought I should consider choosing 'a real job' to aim for!
I wasn't a fan of school (who was?!)- but I loved my drama lessons :)
My thoughts go out to her family and friends.
Thank you for following, and despite being an:
11-hour-day-working-lady-who-customizes-clothes-in-her-spare-time-tries-to-get-castings-trying-to-learn-guitar-get-make-up-jobs-and-have-some-kind-of-a-life....I will try to update my blog more often :) hahaha!!
Hope you enjoyed reading :)